Fieldwork Confessionals
A sharp intake of breath, and then: “Don’t put this in your book.” A cheeky grin, and then: “I know I shouldn’t say this.” A subtle shift in posture, affect, tone: “You need to hear this, but you didn’t hear it from me.” Such uttered and embodied cautions frame an ethnographic genre that we call the fieldwork confessional, in which our interlocutors mark what they will share as charged, secret, sacred, or transgressive, and then proceed to share it anyway. In doing so, they place conditions on the work of anthropology. We argue that fieldwork confessionals trouble the commonsense that “closeness” is the mark of good ethnographic practice, belie distinctions between “field” and “desk,” and call attention to what remains unspeakable within our discipline. Through experiments in collaborative authorship, this collection takes the fieldwork confessional as an opening toward an ethnography willing to abide the tough work of not knowing and to be less precious about getting the last word. It is the product of the sort of serious play and serious care that we need more of within anthropology.
Keywords
confession, collaboration, representation, intimacy, ethnography
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Introduction
Fieldwork confessionals
Chloe Ahmann, Ali Feser, Alix Johnson, Erin McFee, and Amy Leia McLachlan
Essays
“I have no proof, but . . .”
Alix Johnson
“I know I shouldn’t say this, but . . .”
Chloe Ahmann
“Is your investigation from a professional perspective, or as a woman?”
Amy Krauss
“I’m telling you this because I love you”
Amy Leia McLachlan
“That’s the negative moment of the dialectic . . .”
Alonso Gamarra and Eduardo Pimentel Mauricci
“This cannot leave here, I’m telling you because of my trust in you”: Confessions and ethnographic intimacy in fieldwork with Colombian soldiers
Ana María Forero Angel
“I’ve never told anyone that before . . .”
Erin McFee
“Was it worth it?”
Ali Feser
“I confess, I hardly know what to say . . .”
Shaka McGlotten